You can see my heart beating

I've been moving. Since mid May I have moved 3 times. The middle move involved a box truck, my car, 4 people, 2 cats and a dog - crossing 8 states in a matter of 30 hours. Now I find my self in a place that I can unpack my boxes. Like knick-knacks and all.

The moves were difficult, but lived through it (not without help - Thank you Trail Boss, Rumble Strip, HB and The Nugersons). I got a job, at a college, within 3 weeks of getting back to Jersey and that was a huge help (again not without help - Thank you Brother for getting me the interview.)

In the last few weeks, my Honey just happened to need a roommate, and I just happened to need a new place to live (as the first apartment in NJ was only temporary - though, I do miss you, Sal!) So over the last week I've moved the contents of temporary apartment and most everything I've had stored at my parents house. Not unpacked fully, but the essentials are in place, ie; Brown Dog, Jelly, The Snooch and the french press.

I've been putting in a lot of serious hours on Tribute Sweets. New everything for 2010. Thank you to everyone who's placed an order this year and helped me grow as an artist/entrepreneur.

To keep my head straight through all of this change, I've used my BB camera to document what I've been living through. You can see my 2009 Blackberries here.

Working out wireless issues in my new place. I've got my fingers crossed that I can surf and post from the living room couch tonight.

Right at the borderline

I'm apparently on a posting break.

Where do we go from here?

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Been rambling day after day

Thurisaz
Gateway
Place of Non-Action
The God Thor

With a gateway for its symbol, this Rune indicates that there is work to be done both inside and outside yourself. Thurisaz represents the frontier between Heaven and the mundane. Arriving here is a recognition of your readiness to contact the numinous, the Divine, to illuminate your experience so that its meaning shines through its form.

Thurisaz is a rune of non-action. Thus, the gateway is not to be approached and passed through without contemplation. Here you are being confronted with a clear reflection of what is hidden in yourself, what must be exposed and examined before right action can be undertaken. This rune strengthens your ability to wait. Now is not a time to make decisions. Deep transformational forces are at work in this next-to-last of the Cycle Runes.

Visualize yourself standing before a gateway on a hilltop. Your entire life lies out behind you and below. Before you step through the gateway, pause and review the past: the learning and the joys, the victories and the sorrows - everything it took to bring you here. Observe it all, bless it all, release it all. For it is in letting go of the past that you reclaim your power.

Step through the gateway now.

Perhaps I've grown a little cynical

My heart is broken. Like really really broken. I will never see her again and it hurts beyond hurt.

And here I thought there were no words to describe it.

I just cannot believe how unfuckingfair life is.

Rest in peace, My Bubbas. Ooh how I luv yas.

Brenda Lee Reina, 1990-2009

How long must I wait

Dear Sofia Coppola,
Thank you. Your signature bag is perfection. I WANT IT.

Louis Vuitton Sofia Coppola colletion.

Love,
Big Dreams, tiny wallet

(your secret's out)

August 2000 was the beginning of a glorious journey that I shall always cherish. I've found many answers in Dallas, but even more questions. I've made remarkable friends and foes and I wouldn't give up any of it. Every lesson learned was worth it. So thanks to everyone who taught me something. This is just a tribute.

Moving on.....I've sold my house, given notice to my boss and found a few amazing souls to help me move my life back to Jersey. I can't believe I just typed that. I used to say I never wanted to move back. But the truth is I miss my family and friends and I have dreams that Texas, as big as it is, can't help me realize.

So I've decided it's time to get off the pot because I ain't shittin'.

I'm going home. And I can't wait to get there.